Darkness

We always bother about light..may be because it shows us the way..but have we so far tried to measure darkness?? I see light..I can even measure it..photodiodes, spectrometers and all that..but darkness?? How will it sound like “This bulb emits 40 Watt of Darkness”!! Strange thing about darkness is that..it seems to hide ..in corners, behind objects below furniture.. The only piece of darkness that comes forward often is our shadow..that too when the light is behind us.. Its easy to see how light and darkness walk together..but don’t see each other..Open your eyes..Its light..close them tight..its darker than anything can be..
Well then how can one define darkness?? Darkness is the absence of light?? Well that’s not fair..The definition of I cannot be “I am the one whoz not You” !! Then what is the absolute and precise definition of darkness? Lets define..Darkness is the twin of Light with some basic genetic differences..oh! not again!!! Then can't we define darkness without speaking of light?? Unfair again! Light has so many definitions … particle, wave, fields and all..but darkness?? There is no amount or wavelength of darkness..although it lurks on without even a proper definition.. Yet ..Darkness I find it firmer and stronger or even stranger than light..It has only one color..and a unique characteristic and that is “nothingness” Or is there something?! Why isn’t it that everywhere there’s light..then surely we can say darkness has a purpose which we may still don’t know! 
Here’s a question..light “clears” darkness..but can darkness wipe out light??
Another question..does light accompany darkness?? Or darkness always follows light?? OR is darkness “created” by light???
Oh no! Another Question..Light is an em field..is darkness a field? Or is it truly quantized?
Darkness! Darkness! Lead us to Light!

Life in a Quantum well

Life in a quantum well is all about little space, impenetrable boundaries and at every nanometers stopping and asking...How Far You Can Go Before You Stop..
Think to yourself.. how far is that far..till which you can go? How far do you ignore before you accept? And how far can you accept before you resist? How far can you resist before you let go? So..everywhere..there is somewhere we have to stop..like we all are living in a box!!

What is there in a quantum well?
A. Discrete energy levels..well dats obvious..our world is our work..our home..n max our driveway to workplace..and so..few people..few feelings..few botherations..few complications....discrete thoughts..discrete interests..
B. Isolation: Are we any better than an electron in an "infinitely deep" potential well?? From where even if we cry out loud..is there many to listen??? I guess not..all I see is that there’s wall all around us.. walls.. high..lofty..of expectations..obligations..egos..sky high walls of satisfactions..which are sure never to be crossed..impenetrable boundaries locking us inside..

So then how is Life in a Quantum well ?
Like electrons in an “infinitely deep potential well”..we are all loners in this quantized world. Inside..very much in our inside..there’s a locker room .. having a silver casket..with an ivory box containing a piece of our loneliness. Amidst the jostling fare of life...loneliness keeps humming from that small room..like a whistle you can only deny to hear..and the whistle gets stronger everyday..till we die..holding nothing but that casket..containing our very own..probably only OWN ..piece of our loneliness...

And then electron becomes light…

Love??

Man..this is more complex than solving a 5th degree differential equation..defining this Love stuff honestly!! The difference between tryin at them is that..solving mathematics creates answers..reasoning emotions creates questions! From what..you go to how.. then to why..n by the time you arrive to who.. at least I did this and fell asleep.. Strangely..there are some million odd couples to laugh at me..saying Dud! we found the answers..because we didnt question!!

Ok fine..I know I am over critical..for example when I meet a new guy..first I estimate.."Is he taller than me..or well i have to dump my high heels"..If the meeting proceeds..I wonder.."is he good in studies??? Or I will have to give up mine in near future"..if he proposes..the first thing that comes to my mind :"is he of a compatible zodiac?? or else..this match wont last any way.."
Well by the time you have read this..u have made up ur mind to tell me.."Lady.. Give up..its not really your cup of tea..or even may be the cups not yours at all!!"
I know..
Then ask me.."what s your take on love?" I say its like a multidimensional optimization problem with various degree of constraints and boundary conditions which must be satisfied to find a general and particular solution to the problem called --being together..

And then you say: Moron..love is only an addition...
Happy Valentines Day..

Numbness:

After a day of brisk activity..scooting down stairs, sipping tea on the run and collecting materials due for weeks..feeling just numb now..so writing on numbness

so how am i feelin?well its one of those rare occasions when i feel xactly nothing..emptiness had never a better definition n xample..my numbness has got nothing to do wid words like sad, melancholy, brooding.. its just that the inside of me is soundless...there is simply the absence of thought,feeling,questioning,planning, agreeing,crossing ... Its just quietness..n Linkin Park isnt helping much...

I am feeling like an empty room with a radio ON inside..

Have you ever felt a similar way? Was it as strange as mine?? Strange I say..because..while presence of worries makes me panic..the absence of it is making me restless.!!!Today wasn't an important day at all..it was just typical..am I desperately in need of some sorta "breaking news"?

May be this is the "standby" mode of my operating system..I am not sleepy..had a gr8 dinner, chatted with a few friends..and again the same feeling is encircling me..cloudy n clumsy. Will a nights sleep help me get over it?

Well lets see..Good Night

Faka timer kotha

Ekhon ektu time pachi..tai onek kotha moneo asche..erpor sob kotha electric field lines, transmission wire r wireless communication er modhe jorie bose thakbe..Xam times are strange arent they?? They make u get lost in stuff that you would run away from after those 3 hours, may never again come acroos in lyf and become totally insignificant..like i once studied engineering drawing..godd..wud talk about those sessions later.. But yet..before the xam of it..I prayed to god that I wudnt want nething from him if I do good init!!

Poor God..i wonder what software he runs to process such requests..

My First Blog..or an attempt at it..

Well heres my first piece of writing a blog..dunno whoz goinna read it..dats y I didnt start at it previously coz i keep myself away from fruitless endeavors. But standing here..or well sitting before my laptop..i think its often great to tweet alone ..even if no one bothers to read it at all..at least I can vent the cacophony inside my head (n start a headache in some one elses..).
Lemme tell u the first thing..dont xpect me to be abiding by golden rules of anything..language, topic or ideas..This is my breathing space.. and u can surely add your carbon dioxide here!! Bangla hindi r eengrajee te misiye likte parlei valo hoi..karon xpress kora niye kotha..r ha..xcuse me 4 d sms trmnolgs...i hp evr1 undrstnds dm nw!!
R ki..suru hoye jai.. online soliloquy ..roj ja mathay asbe tai likbo..